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15:15 on 01.15.03
"what's a harmony"

last night i told joshua something had been bottled up inside of me for awhile. i didn't even want to admit it to it myself but during the last couple of days i have been slowly accpeting it...

i told joshua that i felt like he loves me less and that i love him less. it was kind of a sudden feeling too... it started building up around the beginning of stress time (which was at the beginning of the month) so we talked about it. i feel a lot better. we both know that the next two months are two of the hardest months in the school year. for both of us, there's midterms and then just the general flow of work on top of it. and for him there's debate (these are the two biggest months for debate) and for me there's the very demanding role of 'principle flutist' that i take on. so things are okie. i feel a lot better.

thank you joshua. (=

so after school today we had a meeting of the flutists. and the flutists were really snappy especially... well, we'll call her jessica. jessica is a freshman who is in the upperclass band because of her schedule (definitely not because of her (nonexistant) talent). and mr. r was talking to them about how we need the flutes to play and we need support from the section. and then he talked about how the piccolo needs it because piccolo doesn't make sense without the flute at times. and he is right. i am there most of the time to highlight what the flutes have. i am leading them and that is my job...

so jessica opens her mouth and says "well, sometimes you're playing when we aren't. so what are you talking about? where do you want us to play more?"

(now a girl i shall call faith told me afterwards that she almost laughed after jessica said this because... well you'll see why.)

i have both the piccolo and first flute parts and i have looked at the second flute part several times. i have even gone over the conductor's score to see where i am matching up with them and where i am not.

so i told her this and then she decides that she is going to show off her lack of musical knowledge.

jessica says "well, we're playing different notes so it is going to sound different so why do you need us anyway?"

i almost died laughing!!! it's because even if we're not playing the same notes, we've got the same rhythms and there's a harmony. when we (meaning top flutes) told her this, she still didn't understand and further pushed her argument that it isn't her fault that we can't hear her play.

if she shut up and stopped talking and actually put the flute to her lips, we'd all be fine.

i wish i knew faith better. she's really sweet and she has a lot of promise on the flute. if i ever taught music (be it lessons or band class), i would want lots of people like faith as my students, because faith is always asking questions and trying to better her performance skills. if only the rest of the flute players were like faith. i used to know her really well, but everyone was friends with everyone when you're in elementary school. and that's when i knew her much better.

i know i know, my useless drivel about band isn't as entertaining as i would like it to be but i hung out in the band room today during fifth period and i talked to mr. h. he's really awesome. in april he is going to be having a recital and he is playing a piece all by himself... for like forty minutes (and i am worried about a twenty BEAT long solo) and i really want to see it. he's an amzing pianist.

a week until the two year anniversary. me and josh are going to be taking time out for each other on that day since we don't spend lots of time talking during this month... *sadness* i wish that we could see each other on the 22nd, but i don't think that will be happening. if i could just see him for an hour i would be on top of the world.

also!!! before i forget!!! i am thinking of a layout change! the purple is nice and imageless is great but i am thinking of doing something along the lines of flute and music. i left a message in kate's guestbook about it to see if she'll do it for me. (= *happy*

i love joshua. <3 chelsea