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22:04 on 01.16.03
"josh-shaped hole"

because i am addicted to this journal for some very strange reason (i am not sure why... nor do i want to know. i'm just the perfect journal geek.)

things i want to do in the next (insert reasonable period of time):

- see 'the pianist' (new holocaust movie about the warsaw ghetto... true stories! v. good according to my english teacher) - see joshua and just sit and cuddle with him. like really sit and cuddle and be in love. - get all of the midterms passed and over with. now! - put up a new layout. (thanks to kate as she is going to be making it!) - play tomorrow for our performance. i am so nervous though. -

my mom just turned out the light in this room so it got v. dark and my eyes couldn't adjust. and we're watching the strangest show. i have no idea what it is about or what it is called but i don't want to know any of those things. there's a wonam with an nyc accent and it makes me feel right. like right as in yeah i know people who talk like that.

i need food. i have this thing where my body tells me to eat and it tells me that i need food and my stomach hurts and craves food. and then i don't give it food. and no i am not anorexic. this happens only when i don't feel like getting up to eat. other than that, i eat more than i should. oh well. we're doing aerobics in gym now. well, i am with nine other girls. it is either that or play volleyball for eight weeks. no thank you. not this year, not for this girl. bleh.

i miss joshua! i'm sorry but it's slowly taking over me... as i have said to him several times. i have a josh shaped hole in my heart whenever he's not there. )= but that is the way it feels. he's not here and i couldn't really talk to him tonight, and i can't talk to him tomorrow or saturday (stupid debate tournament that he has to go to... he doesn't even want to debate!) so i am missing him greatly.

i love joshua. <3 chelsea