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21:12 on 01.17.03
"lord of the flame"

i got really bored and decided to write an email to sam who i plugged in an earlier entry and i don't want to plug him again. so just go to that entry (what is wrong with me>?) but anywhoness, sam is my new friends. well, not new friend. i have known him for a bit but now he is my newest better friend. but the following paragraph is the email which i spent... long enough on:

hey it's chelsea. i am so bored. and i can't get to your site :-( i tried before. *sadness* oh well. can't see it at school either, which sucks too. i have movement for rosa jammed in my head and it WON'T GO AWAY which is really ticking me off. and i don't know. you're a freshman and i am a (*very* high - not like that!) sophomore, so it's not like... i don't know. the only things we have in common are (a) band (b) miss o disliking (c) debate quitting/not enjoying (d) honors class-ness and (e) being students at [edited for -reasons-] high school. and maybe (f) we're blonde. both of us. (yes i am really bored). so you should email me back. talk to you later and see you in school/on the [edited for -reasons-] stage (but it'll be a bit til then). -chelsea

so we're watching ice age just about now. not my choice of movie but hey what can i say? i would love to see the breakfast club right about now but has anyone seen that on dvd? because i haven't.

so today we (meaning me, myself, and i) experienced the magic of music today. i would cut and paste this whole section from an email i wrote to joshua, but i don't feel like doing that.

today was my high school's dream day in which the interethnic club puts together an assembly to commemorate martin luther king, jr. and the band played "movement for rosa" (i say you should download it, it's tres excellent). and so i got to play the solo. the coveted, oh so very wanted solo that i have been freaking out about for so long.

the thing about me, though, is that i have severe stage fright. which you wouldn't expect, especially if you know me in real life because i am always outgoing and loud and i like to be the center of attention. it's very much a me thing. but i have stage fright. i get on the stage and i freeze. it becomes hard for me to move (literally... i shake when i try to move too much or just not move).

so i got up there before the performance and i am sitting there freaking out and sarah is being oh so friendly and kind and saying "they're going to be watching you and they're going to be listening to you" which just got to me that much more. i was so nervous, i was on the verge of tears.

but when i played my solo, it was the best solo i had ever played... ever. i wish i could have a recording of it. i heard members of the audience say "wow" in the middle of my part, which was wonderful. i didn't do it perfectly, as there will always be things to improve upon, but it was amazing. i could have sat on that stage and forever and been perfectly fine. i must admit, piccolo brought on another bunch of wracked nerves (that was clever, admit it) but music once again unlocked another world for me.

music is what i want to do with my life.

i love joshua. <3 chelsea