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chosh part one

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10:39 on 01.18.03
"missing him still"

i miss joshua.

and he is away at a debate tournament debating when he doesn't want to. poor child. i miss him so much. hm... someone once said in my guestbook (sorry i don't remember who right now!) that whenever they want romance they come to my journal. yay! that is a good thing. unfortunately, the abundance of love does not sit well with reviewers. they say that i don't express any emotion, except for when i talk about joshua, and that emotion is not good enough for them. and then they say i don't enjoy anything else. so let's give a little recap of my life (right now, i really want to write in my journal, except nothing has happened so i need something)

*joshua - apparantly the love of my life. my boyfriend of nearly two years. (four more days until that anniversary. ah now that is happiness.) i love him, he loves me. and we've been through everything. well, nearly everything, and have managed to survive. at times, he has been the driving force of my life. (making a promise not to kill yourself does come in handy.)

*music - if joshua did not exist, i would be dating my music. okie, maybe it wouldn't be that extreme, but i love music. playing it, listening to it, and writing lyrics for songs that will never actually be released. it is another driving force of my life, and i love it so much i want to spend the rest of my life immersed in it.

*writing - hence, i am here. between this place and my written journal, i write almost daily. i write pages upon pages of... stuff.

*school - as much as i may bitch and complain, in the end, i love school. i love to do the work, i love to keep myself busy.

*cty - well, what ctyer hates cty? (except for john's roommate second session. but he was a bit stranger than the rest of us so he doesn't count.) please tell me why i wouldn't love cty. everything that i love is there. joshua, school, music, writing, me.

*me - i love me. that is about all i can say. i think i am happy with who i am and what i am.

i love joshua. <3 chelsea