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13:05 on 01.30.03
"so freaking well"

And the results are in!

( For some of those freaking midterms, at least. )

On chemistry, which I took this morning and decided "screw it" after awhile because I just wanted to get out of there... I got a 91. Which is good. In fact, for someone who had their mind set on failing, it's tres excellent. And then there's global. (drum roll please?)

93.

90-freaking-3!

I am happy about it. Oh my gosh, I am so happy. I am ecstatic. I can't believe it. It's almost too good to be true, but I did it. And my success tastes so sweet right now. It's amazing.

The one thing that really bothers me is that I know that if I hadn't worried, I would have done better on both tests. Had I not worried, I could have easily gotten over a 95 on both. I now have something to work on before finals: My nerves.

But I think there is something wrong because even though I am a big worrier, I don't usually cry, not eat and not sleep over a test I have not taken. So I am going to talk to my mother about it, and maybe we will make a doctor's appointment. I believe that some sort of pill or medicine will help me out.

I'm glad I am willing to get help for this. It feels good. It is kind of weird though, because I have never had trouble with stuff like this before. It hurts a little because I need to get help, and I am so used to being independent and on my own.

It also feels good to capitalize. I feel less lazy now. :)

Tomorrow third quarter begins, which is going to be fun. No more first period study hall! Yay! Instead, I have health. I can not wait until this class. I have heard that it is fun, and can be an easy hundred if you at least do the work. And everybody, this is me. Of course I am going to do the work. I mean, I am always doing some sort of extra work I don't need to do. It's in me... Somewhere in my blood.

I do not think I will be seeing Joshua this weekend, breaking the streak of about ten or eleven weekends. It probably hasn't even reached ten yet. I think it may be nine. Oh well. No one cares how many weekends in a row it's been. I rally don't care about the exact number.

But midterms are over.

There's this huge weight that is gone now. Just non-existant. I can breathe, walk, eat, sleep now. I don't feel sick. I haven't gagged yet today. I am completely settled. And proud of myself. But not too proud. Just very pleased.

This is so relaxing. I can't explain how amazing it feels. I am free. I AM FREE!

Oh by the way, I almost missed the bus going home today because I wanted to know how I did on the chemistry test. I ran really hard and very fast and almost missed it. Freaking buses were leaving freaking one minute early.

You should never walk on ice.

Or so says le television.

I love Joshua. <3 Chelsea