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14:55 on 02.06.03
"rent and totalitarianism"

emotion, devotion, creating a commotion

Not the way I was going to start my entry but it is stuck in my head and Rent is v. excellent (thank you to Joshua for the CDs and Ilana for introducing me to it!) and I have listened to "La Vie Boheme" and "La Vie Boheme B" so many times that it is practically coming out of my ears... In global today I could swear that I heard "Rent" coming from my bookbag. I heard every single word. It was pretty distinguishable. And I look in my bag at the discman, but it ain't on. So it is coming out of my ears. I don't think that is a good thing.

The Bohemian life... La Vie Boheme. C'est tres bien, oui? I love Rent.

I really can not type today. I am having so much trouble already. Which isn't a good thing. :(

If only I could type then things would be good. So the two outrages of the week are:

(1) They aren't selling soda before first period anymore in the cafeteria so I have to wait until last period to get my soda. I had complete caffeine withdrawl this morning and I could not function properly for awhile. :( This is going to be hard to get used to.

(2) Mr. Wax has decided that because we are learning about the USSR, he is going to teach us what it is like to be in a totalitarian state. So he is imposing a rule in which you have to speak in the third person and you need to be called on to talk. If you slip up, your name goes up. And then you have three chances after that. If you screw those chances up, you fail for the quarter.

What is even sicker is that this is a game. He isn't going to fail anyone. He is just going to keep this up for two weeks. (TWO WEEKS! Sick man...) And then yeah. Now he didn't tell us it is a game but former students and some teachers told us that.

I am feeling really bummed lately. Just like I have too much to do. I think I might, but I refuse to give up. I will continue doing as much as I do, and maybe more. Just because I can not give up. It isn't in me to give up. I like my schedule that is oh so busy. It is stressing but I will do it. I think that I could manage my time better and spend less time on the internet and maybe talk to Joshua a tiny bit less.

Glory... Beyond the cheap colored lights... One song... Before the sun sets... Glory... On another empty life... Time flies... Time dies...

That is from "One Song Glory" which is also a Rent thing. Can you tell that I am obsessed? Hopefully it will be a healthy obsession and nothing really scary like my dc talk obsession. Then I got scary and all girl-crushy and "aww... He's so cute and hot and amazing and I want all of them" and that just was not good.

So with flute (because you can not go without my news in this):

Kyra talked to me for a total of three days. She interacted with me and laughed with me and asked me questions. She voluntarily came up to me and I didn't initiate any of this.

I love Joshua. <3 Chelsea