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15:24 on 07.10.03
"4 (entry) or (flo' sinnaz)"

I can now be considered very pissed (my picture is not showing up at all and I posted a question about it in Kate's gbook and haven't gotten an answer) and very tired (I am not sleeping... Well, I am sleeping as much as I usually do but I am so worn out) and also happy (I got a map of southern and central Iraq yesterday. V. cool).

Still at music camp.

In the 4 flo sinnaz group. (Fourth floor center = position of hall in building = sounds like fourth floor sinners which = 4 flo sinnaz). No I usually do not talk like that. It wasn't my idea either and I definitely was not awake when the whole deal went down. I don't even know what "sinnaz" is refering to. I think that it just sounds like "center" when you're really really tired and just haven't gotten enough sleep. I dunno. And I have no idea as to what I just said.

Also in my own little group which spills into the Megan posse.

We're going into town tonight which is going to be cool, but in the words of Libby, there's too much drama in the group. Our hall is full of drama. Full of it. You walk up to the rooms and you can feel it. It's sad, really.

But there are pissy-nesses with everybody.

Megan vs. Ariel

Ariel vs. Erika

Eirka vs. the world

etc. etc.

We've just been fighting and passing rude remarks to each other that are completely unnecessary. Megan has been giving Ariel this attitude and they're each readting very badly to the other. It is understood as to why Ariel has a problem. (They started teasing her in front of everybody, saying she was pregnant, etc, and just took it too far). But Megan has this attitude.

She also likes to pick out everybody else's flaws. She yells at me for being too loud and then she goes and screams and shouts. She doesn't like anybody. I really think she hates us all. I am very sure that she talks about me behind my back. She talks about everybody else, always points out why there's something wrong with them, etc, etc.

I'm trying not to use ellipses (... = ellipse) b/c my first year at CTY they told me that ellipses can only be used in certain spots and when overused, they make the writer look lazy. like they don't want to finish the thought or like they can not finish the thought. But instead of using ellipses and go to the etc, etc thing which looks even worse.

In the words of Joshua "The essence of Megan's popularity (which has, in fact, dramatically decreased) is making fun of people." It's how she draws attention. It's how she grabs her crowd. Isn't that great?

We're singing "Bridge Over Troubled Water" in chorus and it is forever stuck in my head. "Like a bridge o'er troubled waters... I will lay me down..." Yeah. That is stuck in my head. Which really sucks.

I am not going to go to flute ensemble today. I can't pick up my flute again. I have no desire to go at all. I am going to learn piano again. I told everybody that Josh taught me Heart and Soul, right? Well he did... Well... Sort of. I only learned the right hand part. It took me awhile b/c to me, piano is a foreign language that I can't conquer.

I have to go now.

BTW, the recital went so well last night. I only made four mistakes but no one noticed. :)

I love Joshua.
<3 Chelsea