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22:55 on 07.15.03
"wisdom"

I have been caught once again in one of my ticked off moods and am now writing a list of people and things I am sick of:

-Brendan = Ashley's ex-crush. I am now sick of him. I know, I know, she's gotten over him and it will take time for it to fully happen but please please please stop talking about him! I don't really mean this, I just need to complain about something somewhere. He just happens to be the object of my attention. I'm sick of him and his little buddies. I'm sick of everything he shoved Ashley through. I am sick of him and everythinghe ever said or did within the last four years. And I am so sick of hearing her complain about him over and over again. Eventually, you run out of advice and you don't know what else to say. And then you feel like a bad friend and all that jazz.

-being home without a set schedule: I don't like going from scheduled day to having free time all day. I don't like it at all because suddenly my life feels so unstructured. And I have to fill my time but without activities or places to go it can be very frustrating and monotonous.

-People who don't belong in honors classes: Please, for the your sake, for your classmates' sake, for the teacher's sake, just leave. Get out. Stop fighting your losing fight because you're just going to make yourself look worse than you really are. If you aren't understanding it within an "almost immediately" time period, you're not fit to be in the class. So just get out. Please. (People who don't belong in honors classes *cough*Sara*cough*Kyra*cough* just really really bother me. I can't stand being in class with them. It gets on my nerves and makes me feel like I am in a slow class. I don't like that at all.)

-Challenging music: It bothers me when I do not have sufficient time to learn it - like at EUSMC. Just because I feel so incompetant and stupid. That makes me feel uncomfortable because I know that I am better than that. I know that the pieces we played during first week under Lowery's direction I would normally be able to play. But suddenly, music was stressing and overwhelming. I just wasn't used to it. I won't be used to it. Not for another year or so. I could get used to it within a year. But not in a week. *sigh*

Enough complaining out of my mouth, because if I don't stop myself, I will find a problem with everything. Everything.

I'm watching the All-Star baseball game. To me this is one of the most exciting games I will see other than the series. The American League just tipped the scales, they were losing 6-4 and then someone RBI-ed w/ a base hit and then Blalock hit a 2-run HR. Sorry bout the baseball terms.

Oh man. I want to see "Johnny English" b/c (a) I love Rowan Atkinson and (b) it just looks so good. And I need to see movies. My social life is screaming "Get a social life! Get a social life Quickly! Or at least put a band-aid on me to stop my horrible bleeding!" Alright, so it isn't that bad. It is worse. Camp tends to push you a lil bit farther from friends at home and when you go with a friend at home she can really get on your nerves. I'm not kidding. For no apparant reason, you will blow up at her, just like I did. Oh well. I'm sorry about it now. It kind of felt good to blow off steam then.

People need to be shaken up every now and then. I know I get my scares. I think that if you're strong, you can more or less deal. And if you're not, then you learn how to deal. You get stronger. But if you don't have troubles and bad experiences, then you're not going to go anywhere and you're not going to grow up right.

I honestly do not know what I am saying. I am sorry if his isn't making sense. So read, and just tell me whether or not I'm spouting good wisdom for today. :)

I love Joshua.
<3 Chelsea

PS - American League has home field advantage this year for the World Series. Which kicks some butt. So go Yankees! And win that World Series. At home.