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22:52 on 07.16.03
"image"

Wow I saw this episode of Diagnosis Murder. I really liked it. I remember liking it. I remember being a fan of this show. Yeah that's an embarrassing fact about Chelsea. I'm sure that you all needed to know that. It's none of anyone's business.

My foot hurts. And I am barely tan. I told Yon that and she said "Uh oh" and I don't want to know what that means. I hope it doesn't mean sunless self tanner. Because she would attack me with a bottle of it... That and a bottle of hair dye. *shudder* I wonder, I wonder what that girl would do to me if she were left with me and all the beauty products she could have.

I take pride in my natural beauty. And I don't like having it marred.

Especially by pimples. ugh. Not pimples, anything but pimples. I tend to get them when I am stressed, which is usually when my hormones are a little out of whack. And that's like right now, for some reason. I had thirteen pimples on my face yesterday. They're really little, but I think it is so gross. I could never survive if I had acne. I would be at the front of the line whenever a new treatment came out...

I've been washing my face and drying out the pimples (everything from soap to rubbing alcohol to Stridex tonight) but they won't go away!

I'm really careful with my body and I admit, I have body image issues. I strive for perfection - in everything. And as I watch this fat form on my stomach, I wonder if I can ever go back to the way I looked. I really do. I know I was a lot prettier a couple of months ago. I felt a lot prettier, I looked a lot better. But now I've got this fat stuff and some pimples and I'm worn out.

It just doesn't do a body good.

Especially when I can feel the faint outlines of half a six pack beneath my stomach fat layer.

I'll stop complaining, because I have a lot of things to be thankful for. Like the fact that I am getting contacts! I love that! But I am also very much in love with my glasses. They have the black rims, not the Coke bottle ones, but the thick frames that I very much popular right now. And they fit me so well (they even grew on Joshua...) so I kind of don't want contacts. But I think that with contacts I look better. I dunno.

But I do have many things to be thankful for, and so because of this I will stop focusing on my imperfections.

You know what I love? Life.

6 days until Joshua and I celebrate two and a half years. Now that is something to be thankful for... A relationship that has kept going for so long, and has been so fulfilling. I love Joshua. :) I'm going to be able to spend the two-and-a-half with him, which is really nice. Hopefully, Reuben will take us out for ice cream again, during meet market.

BTW, Reuben is going to be Joshua's RA, but he's in Malcolm. No!!!! Not Malcolm. Nah, I could definitely deal with it.

Alright I am heading out. And check out the story of us, alright?

I love Joshua.
<3 Chelsea