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chosh part one

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21:57 on 08.10.03
"still pretty..."

let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings...

and the song rings through my head, over and over and over again. It is so annoying. I can noy make it stop, but then again, I listened to it at least ten times earlier today.

It feels so good to type and not have to think about what you are typing. Because when I was at CTY everything I typed was so thought over... Stupid fiction stories.

I really do like writing fiction, except it just takes so much time. And it is so much harder than poetry because you tend to need a plot. Yes, a plot. A story line. And most of the time, you don't know where your story is headed. It's so frustrating.

Which is why I am going to do the nanowrimo thing this November (November = NAtional NOvel WRIting MOnth, hence nanowrimo). Because in one month you write a novel. Isn't that exciting? It is. Because you just write, write, write. In a month.

My throat really hurts. On the right side. The one thing I do not understand is that when I have a sore throat, it hurts on one side (always the right side) first, for a day, and then it hurts on the left side for a day and then my whole throat hurts. And then I get v. sick.

I know that at CTY, the girls on the floor below me were passing this sicknessand then the virus got to Josh's roommate and Joshua felt horrible last night and he still sounded horrible today. So if Joshua as sick, I am most likely sick. We pass sicknesses pretty easily. :)

I hope I don't get sick. But my throat now hurts and so does my ear (well, the right side) and my head has had a slight throbbing pain all day and now all night.

*sigh*

Why am I always such a mess? I get sick so easily and I try to be healthy and everything. Isn't this great? I just hope that I don't get too sick during the school year because last year my colds took me down and then add my period to that and I was so wiped out. And then I didn't sleep or eat much and I had so much work to do and I never had a break and...

*sigh*

Such is life. Oh man. Two "*sigh*"s very close together. I don't like using those things very much, except for when they really express how I am feeling. And sigh is exactly how I am feeling right now...

...she's so pretty but she doesn't always act that way, her moods are swinging on the swing set...

And the song is still playing through my brain.

I give up. I am never going to battle the music that runs through my head ever again. Ever again. I surrender. I will allow it to play without a fight. It won't go away, and I can't make it and so therefore, I give up.

Yeah.
I love Joshua.
<3 Chelsea