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10:34 on 09.16.02
"amused"

ashley came over yesterday. we spent a lot of time looking for avril lavigne tickets. there's going to be a "popfest" starring avril in trenton, new jersey @ the sovereign bank arena on wednesday october second, starting at seven. we both want to go. but it's in nj on a school night which poses for problems. *sigh* i want to see avril lavigne.

it's kind of funny to think of what can amuse fifteen-year-old girls. we made another expage (as usual...) and then visted the ones of before. there are so many, but here are some links...

matt's page:

eballs

mike's pages on poodles:

morepoodlestuffetc

inside joke page:

dumbstuffwedid

another page by ash n me:

chemicalkisses

in all honesty, i do not believe that these things still exist. half of them were made like two or three years ago. but ashley and i laughed our heads off at most of them... we just made the things when we were bored. (by the way, @ the inside joke page, everyone has a different name... we even made up code names. so if you don't see "chelsea" that is why.)

i got to talk to joshua last night. i got to talk to him for about an hour and a half. that is what i am guessing. and...

we didn't fight at all. we were so happy. if you read previous entries, it must sound as if i can't decide how things are. but seriously, it's like a roller coaster ride and i don't know how things are going to be today or tomorrow or two days from now.

but everything is finally okay again. i was so happy. joshua and i just talked and talked and didn't fight, which felt really good, especially because we have been fighting a lot.

i hope things stay this way. i don't want to go back to the hell i was in. because i hurt then and so did joshua. so our relationship was suffering and we didn't know what to do. but if you just talk and act normal, things get better.

so i have learned that if you dwell on something bad, you are going to be stuck there. and until you stop dwelling over whatever it is, you are just going to make it worse and the problem is going to grow...

i almost lost joshua. i'm so gald we didn't break up, because right now i would be miserable. i wouldn't be as happy as i am now.

i just wish that i could see joshua right now. or, if not now, then later on today. but i doubt that that will happen. i doubt my father would let him come along and do whatever we are doing today. i need new shoes, so we are going shopping and i think we are also going to see a movie. yippie... i get to choose between my big fat greek wedding and spy kids 2. both look uber stupid, but spy kids 2 looks worse than my big fat greek wedding. i could be wrong, but i rally do not care what i see.

i would rather watch swimfan or one hour photo. they look soooooo good!!! except one hour photo is rater r so i wouldn't be able to get in, unless i pretend i am seventeen, which i could probably pull off. people thought i was a senior last year... and i was a freshman then... and a lot of people think i am eighteen. i don't know why. maybe it is because i am tall.

but moving away from movies...

i got up around nine. well, i am guessing that i got up around nine. i was that last one up (as usual on weekends and during vacation), and i have not eaten breakfast yet. it is about eleven... oh well. i will just eat a late lunch.

alright, i am going now. but maybe i will be back today.

i love joshua.

<3 chelsea