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13:41 on 10.25.02
"*worried*"

i hope my parents don't find this freaking journal. does anyone know who screwed i would be?

look at the things i've written and then think about this:

what would a very strict Christian couple think of this?

i know what they would think of it. they'd think that their daughter was just an all around bad person... :-( and i am not. i am me. i live. i breathe. and they can't kill me because of that.

but the last time they read my stuff, i was so screwed over. they wanted me to dump my boyfriend, they wanted me to never leave the house again. i lost my life in a weekend...

they wanted to homeschool me, get rid of my boyfriend and my best friends, and deny me cty.

none of those things happened but i was so depressed. i was so afraid to write anything for a long time. and then i started to not care...

*sigh*

i'm just really worried that they'll find a couple of things: this place, the other place, my written journal and me n kathleen n yon's slambook.

then i will be screwed over again.

as soon as i am done with it, my current (written) journal is going to joshua for two reasons:

1). i don't want my parents to find it at all. ever. they don't need to read anything in it. it isn't their business. it's mine and mine only!

2). he likes to read my journals because then he knows exactly how i feel about everything because i am honest with my journal and sometimes he isn't sure if i am telling the truth.

alright, so there is my worry for the day. i have to go and find something productive to do with my life now.

i love joshua.

<3 chelsea