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chosh part one

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12:12 on 12.05.02
"set set SET!!!"

the pain in my hand and the spots in my eyes. i just finished a couple practice rounds of set which is the coolest game in the world. i am trying to get my speed to go up. it isn't fast enough. if i play enough practice rounds by myself, i will be able to recognize nearly every set almost instantly. i can see some 1-2-3's and a lot of 1-1-1's and 2-2-2's and 3-3-3's. i am working on it and maybe i will start set tourneys. *uber geek*

we had a half day kind of day today. we went to school, had early dismissal after about three periods and then we took an hour getting home but i sold fifteen dollars worth of chocolate for the fundraiser.

which is so kick ass.

so i have decided i am a walking contradiction. yesterday, i said i have no heart wrenching things to write, but i have decided to tell you what is happening in my family right now:

my sister (kimberly) is having emotion mental problems but she is getting really violent all of a sudden. i must admit, i am only adding to the problem at times, but she is completely out of control.

last night, i was left home to watch her and christopher. and mom told her not to watch any movies while she was doing her homework. so kimberly comes out into the living room with her homework and goes and turns on a video.

*please note: i was on the phone with joshua when this happened*

chelsea: kimberly, turn the video off. you're not supposed to be watching it.

kimberly: mom lets me.

chelsea: *goes to turn tv off*

kimberly: *pushes chelsea out of the way and hits chelsea's head with her fist*

chelsea: *defends herself (and apparantly ended up pulling kim's hair in process... did not mean to do that. i meant to get her away from my head.)*

kimberly: *rips phone out of chelsea's hand and bashes it into the left side of chelsea's head in the process. also smashes chelsea's glasses into the side of her face. hits and punches several more times.*

chelsea: you little bastard get out of my sight.

my head hurt for an hour or two. it pounded and throbbed and felt absolutely terrible. i cried for so long. and yes i called her a bastard. she beat the crap out of my head because i told her (quite nicely, in fact) to stop doing something mom said she wasn't allowed to do.

and then after a bit i took a shower (when my mom came home... i didn't trust her alone with christopher after what she did to me.) and when i got out she was freaking out and screaming at my mom and hitting and storming around the house. so i told her to shut up because i am sick of it. and you know what? i am very sick of all of this. she better stop.

my parents aren't doing anything about it. well, they will be and it is pretty sad that it took this for them to realize that we can't wait until january to get her help.

and when my dad came home he wouldn't listen to me and he decided that kimberly is the way she is because no one will leave her alone. but he is wrong. my mom agrees with me on this, i think. we left her alone when she wanted to be left alone. they didn't enforce anything, they did not do things and instead left her alone. and now she is the way she is. they have to get on her back about everything. she lied to them about her work all during first quarter. she got low grades in most of her classes because she said she was studying, she said she was doing her homework, but wasn't. they have to stop her. i am not getting beat like that again.

and then my boyfriend is the uber sweetheart (oh come on, you know you saw this coming. you all knew i would mention him in here somewhere) and he talked to me until my head felt considerably better and he had to go. but he made me laugh and smile and content and everything. he did his usual boyfriend thing that i absolutely love about him. :-)

thank you joshua, wherever you are. which is at home and if you're reading this then you're in your room on the computer. i love you joshy!

hehe. i love my guy for who he is and what he does and everything. and in less that two months, we will be celebrating two whole years together. january 22nd, 2003 is going to be one of the happiest days of my life, provided all goes well which i am tres sure it will.

mmm... tomorrow night is ashley's play and i think i am going to go see it. hopefully i will because she cme to listen to me in the pit and i want to see how her acting is going. and then there is the debate tourney and i am so learning ld debate. i am learning ld and seeing joshua. isn't that great? i am going to observe him (aka watch him debate) and try to learn.

now that i am doing more than the average person, what else can i say? that i am a freaking over achiever and i don't have time for everything but i try so hard to do it all.

btw, i hope you are enjoying this. it is pretty long. i tried to keep it interesting. i think i am going to go now and maybe i will be back.

i love joshua.

<3 chelsea